archetype exploration and the pantheons

it says they are unhappy with their lives, co dependent, and more. My goals are realistic and self actualizing or have been self actualized. I was neglected emotionally and very much could've become one yet have tempered myself. Even when things are challenging, I'm struggling, and sad I'm also grateful to be alive. I love my life. Life is full of everything and I embrace it fully in the best I can. I have a social life. I like any normal human who's not handicapped as the site puts it craves acceptance. however I don't ask people to accept my chains or behaviour if it need to be modified.


You do, in fact you demand that we all deal with it and somehow still love you. I don't mind if people leave when I make mistakes or am unbearable to be around, in fact I understand it. I don't demand that they stay and while it stinks I think about how it's a good choice to make. Then there were times where I had to make those choices and they were the best thing I ever did. It's always the past mentors fault and how you were abandoned. You don't even know what it's really like to feel abandoned, your mother or father didn't even leave you at an orphanage. You had a family and yet oh well you can play the victim all you want but I refuse to do so. In fact in my videos I talk about the dangers of victimhood and why they should be avoided at all costs. I held back Paxils from banning you and I dragged my name through the mud. Dropping you as an apprentice due to your disruptive, handicap and overall inability to actually learn was the best thing I did and I have no regrets or questions.

I read the whole thing and just feel glad I didn't become like that. I'm glad I'm not desperate or fighting for affection here or anywhere at the force realist community. I'm glad I am standing as an independent. I'm glad Draconis hosts me here and that I get to wake up to learn something every day. I bet in the next 2 years you'll still be badgering me til the day you die or until my hex takes place. As a chaos witch the last person who fucked with me crashed their car and broke a few bones. Another one had a series of incidents and a ministroke...health deteriorates. 

The last person who threatened me physically had other issues happen to them and they died later. The more you fuck with me the more my chaos will take affect and I don't even have to touch you at all physically. I have nothing to flex nor do I mean you any harm. Back off before the hex manifests into your life or keep coming at me but know that it's your own actions that fuel this hex. I don't like to be the center of attention and I have trouble stepping into the spotlight at times. I feel shy and know because I've questioned myself/had my therapist look for signs of narcissism, I am not one because trust me I look for those signs. 

It's more of a nuisance to have you keep coming at me and disrespecting my space then saying "your the life of this place" when your like a pungent stench that creates a giant stink in my opinion.

Hmmm let me meditate upon this new insight...


Rom Dom Rama Dom boody bommmmm,
Rom Dom Rama Dom boody bommmmm,
Rom Dom Rama Dom boody bommmmm,
Rom Dom Rama Dom boody bommmmm,

Boottothehead.

You still fail to realize your pathetic "hex" is meaningless against me. I am more powerful a spirit than you can imagine. I live this place, I embody this place. I am the soul of the Sith!!! I never die! The more you throw at me the more powerful I become! Don't you get it!!! Stupid feeble coward hiding behind your safe spaces and your own justified weakness. You are disgusting.

No one ever became a master sailer in calm seas!! Send me the storm! Envelop me in hurricane! I relish the fight! I live for the challenge. My spirit will never be drown. I will rise evermore and each time I will take the power you send and make it mine!! Keep it up, I need more! I sucked your sexual energy dry and then spit it onto your belly and now I want the rest!

584 dollars is the price of your freedom my dear!

Sometimes the best thing is a life alive but suffering inside. Tis been almost 5 years now and I'm disappointed because it thought you'd learn to be better. But you've never broken your chains plus I think there's a lot more that I can do to you so meh if your my training piggy to stab with my words at then so be it. What's funny is you admitting to being a sexual vampire. 

For example my knife when I point is sharp, and I almost feel bad for you watching you try to use weak angles. Secondly even your sister sees your shit in your real personal life where it actually matters and has for awhile now. Your illusion of the whole I'm a nice guy and the I'm sorry don't match up. Everyone in my life is watching this all go down and they are proud of me. You cannot say the same, in fact no one knows what to do with you. They deem you unsalvageable and you're like a black hole that sucks all joy out of life.

I kinda wonder what Mendocino was like before you and if she was healthier or not. Most people who are in abusive emotional women beaters on an emotional level go to crazy mindsets. It's hard to heal from and I don't pity you at all, sometimes your actions will come back at you like Mendocino costing you a lot of money as an act of karma. You should fear me. *goes back to playing with her knife and slices tiny slices under the unicorns right  knee in the back watching it hobble away playing the victim* I'm a hunter and I like hunting holes in ones story, I am a sith after all. Even Oya....just said a few things about you too, oh shit boi you should be scared. 

Myy friends and I are on a video chat and he said you remind him of Austin Wells. That your sad, pathetic, all my friends know you're stalking, harassing, blackmailing, and physically threatening me. They've been informed and told to let me know if anything is said so there's no power trip for you there. You kinda do remind me of Austin though.....it's so bad^^. I am just waiting for you to continue to mouth off to the wrong person and have them take a stand against you too. Shits coming for you and your the kinda person to where a lot of people would happily go after you. Eventually someone else in addition to me will get sick of you.

...da fluffles. The slicing is a representation of the self being torn down and one's own ego being hobbled. You of all people know that all too well. Also gee thanks for the admittance you have murderous thoughts because I could sense your thoughts that you enjoyed hurting me. I know you think about punching me and that's kinda twisted which fuels my questions if you really are a women beater. 

You've given way more info about yourself away when you project it onto me. I profile criminals because I've learned how too and it's just more to add to my pile. Also we all die someday, how are you going to spend your time while you live? Time is valuable and in my option you're wasting it.

Secondly I view all of this as verbal judo and personally me retaliating is strong. The fact that you say it's sadistic shows I hurt you and you fear being hunted. You fear me because I'm good at this and in a way enjoy it because you keep overextending to show me more about the nice man who wouldn't hurt a fly.

Secondly I'm aware narcissists try to bring out the worst in people, I'm just chilling here totally happy on my end while you got your panties in a wad trying to get the mind going to get yourself all amped up. Have fun with that, fart all you want but yeah duces. *yawns out of boredom and walks away with a shrug* this is boring.

"Others have seen it worthy to put my writings into an archive, a Lord of the Sith no less. And you continue to toil in obscurity. It eats you alive that even others see me and know I am better than you. I have been a legitimate Knight, a Co admin of the most prestigious sith site to ever exist."

I apologized to aetius as I was drunk and reading back on that idk where that even came from. I was happy to be on good terms with aetius and my drinking habits don't help, it undid what repairs were made. A sith is honest about their chains and all one can do is pick themselves back up. No one is better then the other, I think while others have strengths others may not for example aetius is probably a better martial artist than me due to him probably having more time in it than me. Yet does it put anyone on a pedestal....no. It doesn't eat me alive and I'm fine but if I were to somehow earn rank here I'd take it as a compliment. *whistles a happy tune and waits for the news knowing what it is with a smile* good news indeed!

I've owned my own academy and been co admin too, there's nothing special about it. It doesn't make me better or above anyone. They are more then welcome to put your writings on their site like I can here. There is a saying that if you build it they will come, I have had a few recent things happen in regards to my Wordpress forum yet I will withhold for now because I'm not trying to come across as bragging. I think everyone needs to toil in silence without the need to be seen and keep to themselves to do the great work needed.

I like working in darkness and when I am put in the spotlight I own it with all I got. I wait patiently and then strike when the iron is hot. see me ssshhmeee me who cares *shrugs* what matters most is that I'm out there living my life and doing my work needed so I can live my life knowing I did the work to truly live. 

 I don't speak children posturing language so come back and try again kiddo when you have something better. You speak exactly like Austin Wells lol, the two of you should meet lol.