What the term Jedi means to you?

Ok I accept the terms. First, let me tell you about myself.

I am an 18-year-old person who does not like to be in society much (I am a bit antisocial), thinks and questions more than my peers. I am someone with personal anger, but with a great deal of goodness in it. Acting with vengeance and anger is not appropriate for me, it creates more pain and suffering than you can think of afterwards. I am someone who has turned to the dark side due to his anger and some past traumas, but remains in the light as the remaining parts are. Even while meditating for the dark side, I couldn't do anything without my memories and anger. By the way, honor is very important to me. Now some of you will say, "What does your honor serve?" The answer is simple. My honor serves me because it eases my conscience. Some of you will say that honor is only for death. Honor is a term for me that could even be a purpose for me in such a place. I am by no means cruel, on the contrary, I am merciful. But I also do the feeling of compassion according to the measure, and if anyone exploits this feeling, I will notice it and I will be a cruel person for that moment. The people here are the types who want everything to serve them. People in another order are those who want to serve everything. I neither like to serve nor to be served. If there will be a service, I think it can be accepted in a mutual agreement.

VixenV, I've taken off my mask and the person inside isn't exactly fit for this site. And trust me you won't like it.

And if I have to define you for the last time, I will say this: You overreact a little when you see the word Jedi. Then I can deduce the following; You were once a Jedi, or the Jedi must have done something disgusting to you. Everyone knows you're 57 years old and the type to harass women. But I have to ask, if your libido is that high at this age and you seem like a pervert then have you ever had sex or anything like that in your life? If you haven't, these behaviors are perfectly normal, or you didn't look at girls with a sexual instinct in your youth due to social and family pressure, which may prove why you are both a boy and open a topic called "unicorn diaries". I'm not here to make fun of you and crush you. I've come here to do what I've been accused of, and if there's anything I can help with, I'm not afraid to do it because the label I want to use wasn't taught to make fun of people and make fun of their real faces. I was taught to help and befriend those who would be ridiculed in this type of society. I know life isn't all rosy, but if the label I want to use is going to have a purpose, this should be it.

I am not weak in my anger. Because I used my anger as it should be. I only used my anger as a sword and armor. I acted with reason and used my anger if I had to, and as a result I suffered from the sith. Who am I not ashamed of? But I used to hurt a lot of people's hearts unnecessarily. I also smashed one of them on this site (someone who really cares for me). That's why I have a conscience, and the word passion pisses me off a little. My conscience guides me, not passions. For some it is a weakness, for others it is a strength. I know everyone here is power-hungry. But I don't hate you. If I am to hate or defeat one of you in anger, that person will live with me forever. And actually the person I want to destroy there will be a part of me.

Passions are unhealthy, but when conscience and reason come together, nothing can break it.

Actually, I'm not contradicting myself. Because at the time I had a bit of a hard time controlling myself while using the name Perditus, but I handled it in nullityus. I know myself. I am a seeker of peace and a sufferer. And I know that this pain will not end with passion. If I let the dark side lead me then personal will doesn't matter. The lesson best taught to me was this: when it comes to will, everything else is secondary. According to you, I am not suitable for the term Sith, this is evident from what I have already written. The sith I have learned is the philosophy of the sith that values the will. My only goal is to break the dogmas of the light side by using the dark side and to create a beautiful jedi teaching because I have to lead this path in case someone else wants to go or if others want to go. Everyone suffers because of what they have already done. I have planted the seeds of bitterness that will appear later in my sith and every similar behavior in my life. And now I'm going to bandage my wounds and apologize to the one person I need to apologize to here. Then I will establish an order that is free from dogma, where questioning and freedom are much more than other jedi temples.

And the only person I had to apologize to was my first master

What does the change of a name have to do with anything? Once again you are basing your reality on labels. This is a fools superficial undertaking. I ask again, who are you without using labels?


If you are not worthy of the term sith, then why are you even here? You want to use the wrong tool for the right job and yet you openly admit you dont even want to master this tool. You are wasting your time, pretending you are something you are not, trying to achieve something you never will, unless you wake up and take personal accountability for Yourself and your actions. Do you want something? how much are you willing to sacrifice? If not everything then you are a coward. Pick a fucking path and stop acting like you know something you obviously do not know.

Lycurgus is a fool and so I must conclude that his master was also a fool. They have no understanding of the code or what it means. This is obvious because you are just as ignorant. I look for substance, no superficial posturing and self agrandizing, false claiming titles they have no idea the meaning of. It takes a lifetime my friend. If your not committed to this you are a poser, full of empty promise and meaningless cult power only. You are their cult disciple, their victim. The first lesson you must learn is that you know nothing, no one can teach you nothing, you just need to know. Then, and only then may you start to gain wisdom.

Finally, whenever Iycurgus says that his training is over, then I will drop the name Nullityus. 2 different personalities for me. I called my anger and hatred nullityus. I called my mercy and my compassion and my tolerance Quinlan. That's what it's all about. I just have a habit of classifying everything