Vixen's Tantrums - Ineffectual Noise

Well there ya go repeating yourself again...

orderofthesith.boards.net/thread/454/discussion-practical-uses-force

And I have nothing to add to what I already said.

If you didn't care, funny way of showing it.

Keep your bullshit out of my journal.

Talk your shit all you want.

Who knows, maybe I'll start to care more...

Probably not though, not if THIS is anything to go by.

I'm going to go on the offensive now because I have to throw you and your nonsense out of here for all the Sith and visiting Jedi here. I also know that the Sith order will help more than the Jedi order in this regard. Now I'll do everything I can to get you going. As long as the next generation of Jedi and Sith is spared the nonsense of people like you, whose only potential is the graveyard. I sacrifice myself for this job. 

Lmao if I'm a terrorist then you are an extortionist... Aimee... oh and a narcissistic gaslighter... Aimee. Aimee Aimee Aimee
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Coors, heir to the Coors fortune! Stop being a stingy fuck and just pay your debts.

Oh wait that's right, they put you in the loony bin as a child because your unstable and then disowned you... retard."


While I am an heiress I have had to work for everything while being under abusive parents who discourage everything I do. I literally have no support and have had to support myself. Secondly going to RTC and therapy is some of the best things I did, you should try it sometime. There are great adult rtc's that you can check urself into to get help and secondly a 6 year old cannot self regulate. As adults we often expect what is required of adults out of kids who have yet to figure that out. They are learning and I've forgiven myself for that.

To be honest this year and last year has been really hard for me financially. Sometimes idk what I'm even going to do and I feel like I'm about to break at times, but then I go forward and manifest new things. Life throws shit at you and what makes me a sith is my ability to ask for help or handle shit. I have had to be my own mother, father, best friend, and more  while curing myself of my ptsd. Sometimes there are good days and sometimes there are really hard days. Yet I fight every single day and I aint ashamed of it.

I don't even know if I'll inherit anything honestly, I forge my own empire by doing what I can and holding the weight of my mantle on my shoulders. I made a mistake of accepting help from the wrong person that's a lesson and that's on me. Oh well you learn. If I did not go to therapy or go to emdr or have a support system or mentors idk what I'd do without them. 

I guess, Praxus is not friend of VixenV. Yes, what I'm doing is like shit because I'm trying to do what people more experienced than me can't do. But I'm confident that I was the one who beat the scorn and I never lost to VixenV. While the way I lost Scorn embarrasses me, hiding the truth makes me look like other Jedi. If this establishment intends to join my fight on this issue, I would like it, because I will need help to fix this mess completely. We will do this together, but let me tell you from the beginning that I will not give anyone a heightYes, what I'm doing is like shit because I'm trying to do what people more experienced than me can't do. But I'm confident that I was the one who beat the scorn and I never lost to VixenV. While the way I lost Scorn embarrasses me, hiding the truth makes me look like other Jedi. If this establishment intends to join my fight on this issue, I would like it, because I will need help to fix this mess completely. We will do this together. But let me say at the outset that I don't bow down to anyone, so your passions about the Sith apprentice are unnecessary to me or I'm not a pawn. We will do it all together without anyone's management

or don't leave, yet you haven't learned anything based on what I've seen. But hey you could surprise me. Your still so cringy and just a wild sword swiping at everything resulting in dulled strikes. Why would anyone want to follow you? what can we learn from a Sith Lord who studied for what....2 months then left? how can you build up anything in it's place?

English is my second language and I am 18.5 years old now. Technically and logically, I am not a child. I say come to your senses. I may have spelling errors, sometimes my English is weak and I use translation. If you don't like it, I honestly don't care.

All you sith women I know think you are so important and act as if your words will change others. That's enough, my timidity is because I want to be a dignified and tolerant Jedi, but that doesn't mean I won't use lord Nullityus. I walk both paths. What is to you means nothing to me. You are neither my close friend nor my teacher.

This is not about making people follow me, this is about uniting with common rules for a common goal, but unfortunately since you only use one side, you have a narrow and dogmatic view like ordinary Jedi. And from what you said, I understand that even appearance has the capacity to deceive you, because you care about the way of writing, not what I write, and this makes you weak.

I want you to know that I have a special hatred for you Sith women. You are all so egotistical and arrogant. You consider your passions and emotions to be valid and accepted by everyone. The pain you experience is nothing and you constantly cry and whine. That's enough, I have the strength to be enough for you even at my age.

It is over, kurai. I have the highground. 

If you hate the hand that points out what your lacking then I don't know what to really say except your acting like a fucking child. You can go on not seeing that for all I care and I cannot honor your name you will just be the kid who was banned from totjo for saying stupid shit. You cannot unite when you lack anything to unite with. even over there at F.A I don't see you goin that far, it isn't about uniting. It's about self empowerment to me and if I cared about acceptance I'd ask you for it yet I don't. If you read anything which you haven't you'd read I acknowledge I'd not be accepted. 

I think that while it's part of human nature to be liked I'm okay with not being liked. I'm okay with not being accepted and people are free to do whatever. Your assumptions are some of the dumbest things I've heard, I studied both jedi, sith, and some shadow stuffs. I even forged my philosophy based on those things and what I've learned in life. Your so eager to fight that it blinds you and to me your just a noob who has yet to learn anything.

I won't waste time fighting a kid, however I  will use conflict to point out what can be self bettered and address issues I see in YOU. I think at times it'l be hard to see which is why you go into fight mode so I will leave you with this image I was mulling over today. If you want to be heard, understood, and appreciated really spell check everything so people can actually understand you. Use paragraphs and break it up so you can communicate in a way that helps others intake what you are saying. Communication is a two street. *shrugs* welcome back, learn or don't. fight or don't fight, until you drop the kid act you'll never become a learning sith. 

It's that I'm 28 and you're just starting your life out, I've experienced a lot more and have spent time adulting. Everyone for a majority will call you a baby still, hell I have 60 yr old people calling me a baby too at times. Your just beginning your life and have a lot more to learn, I know you may not think that now but maybe when your 30 you'll realize what I'm saying or maybe not. I cannot talk about Lady Scorn due to our agreement so keep that shit out of there and stop bringing them into this shit. This is between you and me, now I know people in the council and I know you were an unhinged moron saying stupid shit. Which is why they banned you in fact a lot of the crazies often come here....why is that? *muses to self* 

Since you cannot conduct yourself here on a level that actually makes way to an adult discussion and want to throw temper tantrums to turn it into a fight I am done. Your like vixen in ways and just want to fight instead of actually learn....how narcissistic lol. You know everything you said bout me is just a reflection of you and I am not surprised. At my age when I was 18 I would've been upset too and wanted to be seen, heard, or accepted. Obviously you care enough to message and fight with me so shush on the whole "I don't care mr. tough guy act." because if you didn't care you would be like Khaos. khaos is silent, show us you can be better then us or just keep showing the holes of Jedi hypocrisy by all means.

My friend, I don't know what you've been through, but I can tell you that the hatred I once felt for women, within a single year, was something that started since I was little.

In Turkey, if you are a man, you are like a ghost. Nobody cares about you and you are not valuable to anyone, I learned this when I was 14 years old.

If you are a girl in Turkey, you will have a lot of ego and you will be in love with 3 or 4 people at the same time. My awareness increased rapidly. I read a lot of books and analyzed my surroundings. So, I suffered constantly for about 5 years. I will still shoot it.

Since I turned 8, I would go to my village for 2 weeks every summer holiday, walk around the mountains and get fresh air. Then, for the remaining 3 months, I worked as an apprentice in my uncle's furniture workshop.

I grew up in construction, and maybe that's why my awareness developed so fast, I don't know. There was a girl I liked for a while, I think I was 15 years old. The girl kept saying "oh shame" to me.

Once, while I was under construction, I saw that girl's pitying look while I was dirty and my clothes were torn. I was beaten with a stick by my uncle for taking my eyes off work for a little while.

This is not America. Even though human rights are signed here, there is no justice. I am someone trying to reach the top from such a life. Now I am a carpenter master.