Discussion hall with draconis

I remember when I ran away from my emotions or just transmuted them or had coping mechanism to fall asleep when I felt intense anger. I don't think I seek to hold onto set emotions but sometimes people just leave such a bad taste in mouth that I feel ultimate hatred or nothing. I seek to learn from it and observe my actions. I observe the energy exchange and how I could've done better. Then I take that forward and seek to do better next time. The more I learn the more I move past it and don't feel hatred all the time. At times I remember and then I felt things again but then it goes away. It can be pretty intense and yet I'm starting to feel okay with that. 

I learned how to feel and change myself for self empowerment because I thought feeling emotions isn't worth it. Plus the consequence on body and how it can have supposed adverse health affects which in response I feel more fear. I want to be healthy and maintain top peak shape in my body. I think I'll allow myself the true unhindered emotional responses and just sit there in the storm seeing what happens. I am going to use the observer of monkey mind thing I learned from David and if things feel intense at times do grounding because when I feel things I feel my energy increase. I'll pay attention to stimuli, when I feel my body respond, and when my mind then emotions flare up. I will share more later and if this isn't worth the time I understand and I am not even expecting an answer yet if there's one where I can hear your thoughts I'd appreciate it. 

"you wear the trappings of a sith yet I sense much fear in you." -I think dooku said that. I am going to go on a shadow hunt for that emotion. This came up a few times and I'd like to recognize the fear in me. *focuses back to mix*

Haha... he doesn't care. He's not your friend or your ally. No one gives a shit about you.

me thinks you think it still somehow beneficial to do what you are doing or that you have some sort of angle. *shrugs and does her thing while surfing the energy* if anything I kinda like the push, gib me more please. Push me harder so I can surf it more. forge me stronger.....turn up the heat lol. you do your thing unicorn, just make sure to clean up the shit after you leave cause idk if any of us wants any horse unicorn shit no the dojo mats.  with all da heat in da kitchen it sure as hell smells.

One hell of a high maintenance pony for sure that wanted everything, yet no sane person can give it. You have no spirituality and there is no growth you can do. Everyone here has helped and you act like you grow but you actions don't show. Hell maybe raven will help but she's tried to help you before. In fact she told me it's a waste of time and I kinda see she said that now. You have no wounds, you just only say that to play victim for further excuses to spread more lies. 

It's funny watching you try to wound me then say your wounded, I don't even lick my wounds anymore. *leans down on elbows and curiously waits for more angles* I'm curious now what else you'll spam.

*spews her drink and rolls back laughing hard* I am laughing right now.....omg. That is funny......my dear soul no one can steal you. who'd want too as well, ah well I'll take the Luciana thing as a compliment. go us we both had common sense to walk away from this shit cause it stinks so bad. ur weak if someone can steal.

"You Burl were born to be bad, so that others could rise to be their best self." 

if you were my putty you'd have been successful yet oh well. your funny. If you were putty you'd have been moulded into something no one wanted to kick or ban. I tried to gib you da tools but meh. Audra, raven, luci, me, ally, soon to be zealot, you have failed to be actually taught by and show us you learned. 

a child could do better then you but personally I dislike teaching children. they are too dumb and learning shit still so I personally train adults only as it should be.