my final debeate on oots

Yes, this is literally the last discussion for me. After this discussion, I think I will not come here again.

In Vixen's thread, I talked about why Kurai was an unfair liar, and to summarize, he could not complete his training on either the dark side or the light side. That woman lacks stability, strength and discipline. I don't want to show ego, but to tell the truth, even Lord Nullityus defeated him easily, he doesn't have much power next to a Jedi knight. Kurai lives a life full of lies.

If Lycurgus wasn't depressed and cared about his student, I would have completed my training in the dark side, but I don't care anymore. My master is Streen.

I chatted a little with Lycurgus and frankly I missed him. She used to be strong, but now she has become even stronger. We had a small argument and he proposed me a fight. Even if I win or lose, there will be no winner in that fight because Lycurgus is like my elder brother. Besides, I am not a Sith, my goal is not to overthrow anyone, but to be in touch with my elder brother again. I don't care if he's Sith or Jedi. What was important to me was our brotherhood. I think I did not disrespect my old master by staying within the limits. I am not someone who will reveal everything to my old master like Kurai. If I consider myself superior to him, then I have to have a higher honor and dignity than him.

I'm tired of waiting here for Scorn and being a material for other people's passions. I'm a Jedi, where there's passion there's shit.

I'm tired of seeing Scorn and Kurai arguing passionately among themselves over who is the stronger woman. It's like stupid girls in high school or college sleeping with each other's exes and showing off to each other, and it's ridiculous and primitive.

While I was a Sith, I always hated the competition between these genders, the deceptions, the sheer gossip, and the ridiculous hierarchies and lies created by these two enemies using sexuality as a show of power. At the same time, when I look at relationships, in the past, men had a clan instead of a casual relationship, and if they had a status there, they could get married, and relationships were smoother, men had importance, but now, women do the art of shaming even the most normal things and make the man feel guilty. Let's give a simple example; An older friend of mine wanted a child from his wife, and my friend's wife and friends shamed my friend. There is a ridiculous system they have established and there are thin scum who support it. I made the mistake of opening the internet, an obese man, a woman with an onlyfans and pornhub account was doing whatever she wanted. I got really angry and the woman tied a dog leash to the man and the man started kissing the woman's feet. When I saw that scene on YouTube, a living person was resurrected. Lord Nullityus. I was starting to hate the 21st century. masculinity was starting to lose its importance. I hated them so much when I was a Sith and I can't be a part of it when I was a Jedi, I have no hatred in me, only pity. These cannot change. What I need to keep alive is masculinity.

That's why I love living virgin and alone. I don't live for anyone's passion, I live for my own peace. There is no passion and there is only peace, harmony, serenity.

While training me, Scorn tried to make me look like Malgus and wanted me to be inspired by him. As you know, Scorn loved badboys like Malgus. I'm not a badboy or a leader. I was a loner like Darth Vader and I was a Jedi before. Thus, the fictional Sith I most resembled was the Sith Scorn hated the most, Darth Vader. I was very inspired by Vader when I was a Sith. I know I'm not Vader or Anakin, but I managed to apply this duality similarity to myself. Childish decisions made in the past and the regret and pain that come after can teach a person a lot even at a young age.

When I was a Sith, I thought I could control and suppress this cycle, but by doing this, I saw that I would only become the like of Scorn and Kurai, and I changed. I accepted this ridiculous fact. I will bring balance to the force, and I will achieve this by keeping my master and myself away from these passions.

I used to have anger, but now I can only have pity. It's time to let go of my memories, chasing Scorn, and learn a better lesson from them. I will no longer be a victim of anyone's passions. My education will be more than 10 years on purpose because what I want is bigger. I don't want to be a knight or a master, I will be the Jedi grand master of the next Jedi generation and at this rate, I think I will be one of the key figures of the Jedi generation in the future. I am the next generation.

After such conversations, kurai or scorn share an alpha female who is the leader of a group or imply something like that. I'm different from them, I'm just a Jedi Knight, so I need something to symbolize me, and of course that would be Luke Skywalker. I'm not an alpha, beta or omega, I'm a sigma.