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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2023 11:21:06 GMT -7
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2023 15:24:03 GMT -7
This resonated as a call out and a reminder to be mindful of some personal things for me. I am justice based. I am truth based. I am asking this hot martial artist girl out who does bjj. she's smart, witty, and funny. I am a little nervous but also excited. Attachments:
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2023 18:53:53 GMT -7
I'll be sharing a few old blog posts from my thing and leave them here. An Ode to my heart Little heart that was beautiful from the start You went through so much at the start As I fell and rose so many times and life tasted tart You continued to beat and and never part from who you were and what you did you encouraged me to live on and rid what I don't need anymore and to take heed To cry my tears and to truly start to live To shed the past and look at the perceived bruises To laugh, to cry, to prance around like a herd of mooses To cut the old weight of old nooses Life is beautiful and life is enriched because of you my beautiful heart
As I take you in hand and show you growing vulnerable I feel fear once again little heart but deep down I know it's just a new start and another part to grow closer to you dear heart. I love you. I care for you. I nourish you as you do these things to me. thank you my heart from yours truly the mind that is connected to the heart
I feel you in my chest and I feel warmth. I feel a pulse that awakens me every day and beats steadily in the night. When I'm scared or go to the fight I remember you strong heart. I ground into you and feel the loving warmth from you. So world here I am and here is my heart. what's yours like? Can we share and open up something so powerful? Can we share stories and heal together? Can the collective concious grow and heal if we went from our heads to our hearts? I think so and know others do out there as well. Join me and let's hold space for each other together as one big heart collective. -end of my writing
My inspiration: "I know it can be difficult as you have relied on your mind all your life and have sought to use emotions to protect this setup, so it can be difficult to move beyond it. But you have mastered mind (for the most part) now you must master your heart, nothing is lost, only added. It can be scary as you must learn to use a part of yourself you have protected and kept hidden away. The real you..." Master Oc.
"This is the mind talking." Master Oc my mentor says. Get out of your head and get into your heart. My mind has a lot of narratives backed up by experiences. My openness is strength. My vulnerability encourages others to be vulnerable and truly be honest with themselves. I know my merit and my value. I know I was born to rhyme and shine this way so that I can encourage others to do the same. "Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure."-Marianne Williamson. I encourage myself to be vulnerable and by doing so I hope others can know it's okay to be vulnerable. Let's put aside our societal masks and go to the heart together. #healing #reiki #anahata #heartchakra #chakrawork
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2023 20:46:19 GMT -7
So...I asked and got good signs. my intent for sharing is that I want to show if you like something, live it. Sith embrace it. Live a free life and be who you are. plain and simple.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 4, 2023 21:49:36 GMT -7
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Post by VixenV on Mar 4, 2023 22:07:55 GMT -7
sounds like you are tackling issues. it's best to never ignore your failures and face them instead. are you doing that in your life?
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:22:59 GMT -7
okay maleficent is one of my favorite characters. I like how the roots of the story, the villain becoming a hero.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:26:12 GMT -7
omg I gots to try dis. I take kung fu. I could do some qi qong fan stuff.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:28:49 GMT -7
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:30:32 GMT -7
oooh I like dis one
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:31:59 GMT -7
hahaha......that's too good. Good question and point rofl.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 12:39:54 GMT -7
omg I remember when this tik toker shared his song on tik Tok then went on da radio. It's inspiring to me. If he can do it, so can I.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 13:09:04 GMT -7
youtu.be/6fcFu0N c0Q0 aetius showed me heilung awhile ago. My Russian practice I do for 10 minutes each day. I am remembering it and even try to put it into usage with my friend who speaks it. I surround myself with the language when I can. Entries published and scheduled for my blog completed. private class for today for kung fu...score! I punch for 10 minutes every day. i do metal and combat earth then do ice on my knees then hot then cold. I'm ordering some herbal teas. with the current requirements for my school we only need to hold it for 15 min total. working on my plank pushups. my goals are in 3 weeks to submit a draft video of my xma qi qong tai chi fused creative flow. I don't want to use any techniques my school teaches me due to those never being allowed in a competition. They must be kept secret and I respect my teachers teachings way too much. Yet I can do some Shaolin/qi qong techniques that are more open to the public that are also used in other arts that I am allowed to use. I thought of a flow and even practiced a few flows already. I need to have it done by April 1st. I have a piece of paper and a song I'm choosing. I count each beat and write down my kata. notes: each move involves all of the body with proper alignment/stance. focus on body alignment for songham 1/2. be mindful of stance work. keep back foot down not up. sometimes I do that. each strike is powerful and to embody full force as if I'm striking someone to win the battle. I sniffle a little and a tear just went down my face. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, humbly confident and ready to give it my all. this my first time to really see what it's like to be there with some truly powerfully martial artists and see them. I've been watching comps and reading up on the changes in rules on top of what my teacher told me. when I feel primal let it out more and focus it. So my actions are find song in 5 days then share it here.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 15:05:37 GMT -7
inspiring.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 16:40:58 GMT -7
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Post by VixenV on Mar 5, 2023 16:42:47 GMT -7
omg get over yourself
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 20:38:52 GMT -7
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Post by Deleted on Mar 5, 2023 20:42:49 GMT -7
time to celebrate for a second and jam to this song.
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Post by Scorn on Mar 5, 2023 20:51:50 GMT -7
Must you treat this thread like social media, giving us a minute by minute view of your life?
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Post by Deleted on Mar 6, 2023 13:18:49 GMT -7
been called "obsession" "unstable" by of course the jedi. the way of the jedi is to let that shit go and is see now why we differ so much.*shrugs* I'm a sith and always will be....I'm done trying to play with the jedi and get along. *facepalms* I have no ill will towards some of my friends who are but I cannot let go of my attachments. I will not. my ideals are very different. I am justice based and when justice doesn't happen I try to make it happen. granted my strategy is flawed and it's a work in progress. I dislike myself for it but I learn from my failures.
going to the jedi doesn't work. our ideals conflict. I'm a heat seeking missiles. they aren't. I'm done. I go in with barrels blazing and working to refine myself. i do me. got a problem with it, deal with it or don't. I take critique in at my leisure. the people I like are honest, genuine, and good people. I choose for myself. Even when Draconis supported me I went in within my limits of engagement in conflict then pulled out. I saw a victory. Jedi and Sith cannot mix. I tried to think they could but I don't think so.
honestly at first I felt I lost then realized there was nothing to lose there to begin with. let people screenshot me, let em run their mouths, let the weak continue to try to talk to me and beat their fists angrily when I won't engage with them. I feel happy in my own ice castle and just focus on me. Sith operate differently then Jedi. I don't want to play the forum game but want other things that I'm working towards. at times I feel to play it and earned my way in to having my own aspect then left. it wasn't important to me cause I achieved what I sought to do. I didn't see anyone learning from me and if I did I would've stayed.
I hold one thing that I did to a higher standard and am a bit upset about but it happens. I am glad things worked out for them cause meh. reminder to self just go away like khaos does instead of deleting the account. I was drunk when he posted that and tired of feeling talked down on. I took it personally and was trying out a few things for some other experiential training. I notice I come in for phases then live out my life. I share my thoughts, lessons, and a few other things. I learn from what others do to me and decide if that's something I want to hone or not. I am a sith after all. fuck with me....I may just fuck back if you are worth it. I have my limits and one needs to be careful. develop healthy attachment to ones ideals. *shrug*
sith are treacherous. let them do them for all I care. I only did that to try to fit in with the jedi and play muggle. now none of it matters to me. I still have no fear of other sith but also hope to avoid unecessary drama so I withdraw putting my sword in it's says. I have other cuts to make that don't involve other things.
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